This is to new beginnings

I close my eyes as my fingers gently caress the smooth texture of this unturned page, slowly playing with indents of passionate writing and tracing over warped stains left by tear drops that wished to express themselves.

So much has been written and yet it feels somewhat incomplete. Hungry lines left empty, eagerly waiting to devour and eternalise more of this story.

I nod in silent agreement with these lines, the lack of a proper ending to this tale disturbs me. Yet inside I know that no further words are destined to find comfort here.

Fear washes over me as I realise the desperate calling for a new page, the beginning to a new story where even more lines wait patiently for the words I am still to pen.

I reach for the corner and hesitate, too afraid to break the bond between this page and the next. Fearful of what I am about to close off I wait...

As my pen lies motionless I am on hold... A slave to the words silently screaming for my soul. Sentences stringing together to tear at my healing wounds. Paused for a moment that appears to last an eternity my lungs burn, begging for the breath that will save me.

I long for the strength of a stranger to fight this internal battle on my behalf. Someone unconnected to break my connection with these words. Sadly, although powerless, only I possess what is needed to shut them off and continue...

I watch as darkness spreads over this page like an infectious disease, demons angrily trying to hold me back. Their wish being that I remain trapped, a prisoner to the emotions responsible for this story.

It takes a sacrifice of everything that is me. An acknowledgement of the scars I am to bear for eternity. An acceptance unlike any other. I close my eyes, allow the empty darkness to engulf me completely and terrified yet determined, I turn my page...

The unsteady dancing of a nervous heart is the only indicator that I am still alive. My eyes open slowly and I am taken aback by what lies before me. A pure, untainted canvas, opportunity etched in every grain. Excitement bubbles up from deep within. Finally I am free!

Overwhelmed, I weep. I weep for what has been lost and I weep for what I am still to discover. My tears are the first to speak on this new page, they form the foundation of the journey that lies ahead. This mixed cocktail of emotions tells of love, loss, heartache, betrayal, fear, joy, anger, excitement, pain, relief, acceptance and hope.

To me those tears are a collection of my everything; past, present and what is still to come. As these little pieces of me are slowly absorbed I smile, lift my pen and write...

"This is to new beginnings..."

So many questions

I lost sight of the future while I stared in your eyes.
I lost all direction, was confused by the lies.
I misplaced myself when you stole my heart.
I pushed you away while I pulled myself apart...

Did I love like I felt or was I confused?
Did you love like you said or was I just used?
Did we have something special or was it just a good tale?
Did you get what you wanted with an ultimate betrayal?
Did I ever make you happy or was I mislead?
Did you mean it when you kissed me or was it all in my head?
Did you have to leave me broken and alone?
Did you need to run away from all we had grown?

I hope it's enough to know that every tear I cry
Is just another piece of our empty goodbye...
So many questions and just enough lies
It's over
It's finished.
Were you ever "that guy"?

The Thunderstorm

Skies darken...

A deep argumentative rumble begins in the distance.

Clouds gather...

Angry Gods clash swords leaving bright jagged streaks across the grey.
I stand alone as the wind picks up, tugging forcefully at my hair.
Face upward, begging the heavens, i wait...

The damp makes it's way to my lungs, soothing an insatiable burning dryness.

It is time...

I close my eyes and savour the sweetness as the first droplets caress my lips.

A mournful ceremony ensues...

Tears from the sky mix with my own.
The thunderstorm purges it's excess,
Gathered from months of drought.

A renewal unlike any other...

I imitate nature and slowly...

I am cleansed...

Caught up

Depression has a way of eating at your soul
Devouring your very existence
Allowing your life to pass you day by day
Hiding from you time so quickly lost
Forever...
Seconds accumulate into minutes;
Which melt into hours;
Which soon form an army of days;
Days blur into weeks;
Which welcome the months
Maybe even years...

Precious moments slip away
Into a nothingness
A dead realm of now unthought, unattainable dreams...
Potential is lost
In the sea
Of self pity and hatred...
Smiles practice their handstands
And soon
Begin to prefer it that way...
Laughter realises it doesn't deserve a voice
And so he
Quietly shrinks into solitude...
Tears agree they need to explore,
Boycott their small, confining world,
Leap courageously over eyelashes,
Moist from those who failed the jump...
Only to settle in lip's creases,
To be absorbed
By Kleenex.

The mind fuels the fire
With it's God-given ability
To find
Every fault
Each imperfection
Anything "not normal"
One stray hair
One bump out of place
One missing piece
One thing that sets you apart
From the world of "beauty" (standards that don't even exist)
And you're sent plummeting into "the pit"

A place we send ourselves
As "personal punishment"
A place where darkness conceals us from the lies
A place where we are finally numbed
Knowingly oblivious to all we are...
Impossible to determine
Where you begin
Where you end...

It feels right -
Shut off from the world
Separate from the entirety
Saving everyone else from your disgusting
Excuse of the human form.

You are free!

Of course it hurts
Locking yourself away
But it feels so right...

It is right; isn't it?

You are free; aren't you?

Unfortunately depression has this way of eating at your soul
Devouring your very existence...
But the real truth is -

You allow your life to pass
You allow precious moments to slip away
You allow potential to be lost
You allow the effects of what others say

Stop!

For a few short seconds, look around.
There will always be someone worse off
So next time you wish to run and hide,
Try not to be so caught up in you...

I wish...

I wish that I was in your arms right now with my head pressed up against your chest.
Just to hear your strumming heart and steady breathing.
Both of which are music in my ears…
To be comforted in the fact that you are all I need.
With eyes closed I would freeze that moment for eternity, held fast in my memories.

I wish we were trapped beneath a blanket of black sky delicately dotted with twinkling stars.
Alone with nothing but our love to guide us.
Being able to gaze into your amazing blue eyes and know that that is exactly where I should be.
To slowly bring my lips to within an inch of caressing yours,
To inhale your scent and instantly know that life does have a purpose…

I wish for every second that I own to be consumed by your presence.
Those of my past. My present. My future.
Purely because…
I love you…

Bullet to my brain

Painful death in it's best disguise
Evil hiding in those eyes
Deception masked by beauty true
That's all I didn't see in you.

You tricked me one too many times
Like a victim in the front lines
Your poison of which I had no clue
But now I see right through you!

You're like a bullet to my brain
But I won't fall
I won't listen to you anymore
The acid pulsing through your veins
Won't be the death of me again.

You used to suck my blood clean dry
I used to fuck you till you'd cry
How could I not see for so long?
You had me right where you thought I belonged

You thought your sex would keep me blind
You thought you had me by surprise
You thought your kiss would keep you strong
But you were wrong...

You're like a bullet to my brain

But I won't fall

I won't listen to you anymore

The acid pulsing through your veins

Won't be the death of me again.

I won't fall

I don't need you anymore

You won't use me ever again

So I won't fall

I won't listen to you anymore

The acid pulsing through your veins

Won't be the death of me again.

Heart of Darkness

those bloodshot eyes they stare me down
salt stains bleeding down your cheeks
i cannot hear a fucking sound
through your cold, bloodthirsty screams

this is my welcome every night
while you drink yourself to sleep
if you could you would choose to fight
but you're too high to fuck with me

you need me here right by your side
so fuck you, you pathetic whore
without me you would surely die
but i can't save you anymore

nothing can save you from yourself
Heart of Darkness deep within
hope they take you straight back to hell
and deliver me from this sin

twist of fate it's not my demise
here is naked truth perspired
it's your welcomed sacrifice
you can no longer hide inside

Old Whatshername

There she is

Fulfilled yet so empty
Complete yet so alone...

Rough hands grasp at sweaty extra flesh,
Slip.

Stubble scrapes soft skin,
Raw.

Muscles tight and clenching.

Hearts race
Lungs gasp
Passion high.

Frenzied thrusts hit deep,
Sharp, burning pain...

Fingers leave bruises,
As dirty deeds come to an end.

Moan
Groan
Sigh
Relief

Tears stream down delicate, flushed cheeks
No kisses for comfort.

She's been used again...

Walking away

He feels no guilt -
For to Him
And everyone else
she is
And always will be
Just old whatshername...

I am...

Cautious yet naive
Attractive although quite ugly
Radiant but oh so dull
An out of key sweet melody

Decisively confused
Energetic but plain lazy
Nympho who gets used
I'm sane but also crazy
Simple yet complex
Evilly angelic

Can be -

Disgusted but impressed
A mature and calm hysteric. My
Life is the best of the worst...
You can either take me or leave me as I am

Is it all worth it in the end?

Well consider this - Us poor mortals are put on this earth and given a life without a "How to for dummies".

We are faced with decisions on a daily basis, some having greater consequences than others.

We grow and age, suffer pain and hardships. Life kicks us while we are down and almost always finds a way to throw a spanner in the works.

We work ourselves sick and yet very few of us really make it big - most of us just manage to survive.

True love is not butterflies and giggles. It is commitment, support, perseverance, total acceptance and is a lot of hard work. True love does NOT have a happy ending because unless you die together in some crazy car crash SOMEONE is going to end up hurt and sadly 90% of the time one party is more dedicated than the other.

People are afraid to fight for what they want for fear of losing the battle. This fear controls them causing them to tiptoe through each day merely accepting things "come what may".

The defeatist attitude of "Oh well, everything happens for a reason" or "I have no power to change this anyway" is commonplace.

Friends come and go and one way or another there will be conflict.

You are your only true best friend - make sure you act like it.

People will hurt you.

You will hurt others.

You CANNOT please everyone so choose carefully those who really matter.

Is it all worth it in the end?

Yes.

If one doesn't have hope then one has nothing. Hardships are there to build our character and mould us into who we are made to be. Happiness does exist and when you experience it, even if it's only for a moment - embrace it.

We are all given a path and what really makes it all worth it if how we choose to walk that road, whether or not every second is appreciated and lived with a smile...

You

You taunt me endlessly,
i am never good enough.
my successes to You are failures,
my loves in life; meaningless...
You are judgemental and cold,
Perfectly pointing out my every fault.
You say i can't
Constantly.
You prove me wrong
Relentlessly.
You are my nemesis,
my worst enemy.
You are the one i cannot conquer.
Every day You shadow me,
Knowing every worthless thought,
Every pitiful feeling.
You take my laughter from me
Saying i don't deserve it...
You give me tears and smile,
Because that's how i should be...
i cannot hide,
i cannot run,
i cannot escape...
Whenever i look in the mirror...
It's YOU i see.
And that's when i discover that
my worst enemy

is

ME...

So long and goodbye

Illuminated pavements
Gucci heels 'click'
Short-cut, stilted statements
Rage and silence thick.
Complete misunderstanding
And blood boils hot inside,
These things just not worth handling,
The "betrayal" and the "lies"
A walk becomes a scamper
A chase then does ensue
Letting her run will hamper
All that you've been through.
Is this girl worth chasing?
Or should you stop and sigh?
She'll always be a race and then...
"So long and goodbye..."

Crash course into Love

Save me from certain demise,

Death at the hands of love,

A collision with Cupid...

Rose thorns tear my flesh -

Bleeding red hearts...

Chocolate kisses cause constant choking.

Ribbons tied tightly around my throat.

Love songs beat unsteadily

Along with the rhythm of my broken heart.

Words of poems cut deep -

Causing my insanity.

Love letters fuel the fire in my ash-ridden soul.

Jewels tarnish against my pale skin,

Leaving black traces of where they once sat...

''Our" song and salty trails remain where before there were kisses.

Love is one fierce enemy.

Kills under the guise of euphoria.

Creates Utopia,

Only to erode into hell...

 

Save me from certain demise -

On a crash course into Love

It's just the way I am

Lying here I wonder
As the moon lights up your face
Could this be the last time?
Will life rip you clean away...
So many days we've shared
So many seconds I could have gazed into your eyes
Took so much for granted
And now in silence here we lie.
I could have said those three words
A million times or more
I chose to leave you guessing
Always left you wanting more.
My heart is a jumble
Of things I wish to say
But now would you listen?
Or would pointless rambles fade away...
Starlight dances off your tears
Formed by broken hearts tonight
I try but can say nothing
I cannot break the curse this time.
You want what I cannot give -
It's just the way I am.
Confusion tears my brain apart
It's just the way I am...
No excuses found this time
You rise and turn away
I watch as dreams are shattered
And do nothing to make you stay
Perhaps they're right
And love is blind,
You chose to love me
And I chose to hide...

Alone

There is one way to remain safe,
You've got to remain alone
Where no one can touch your heart
And peace abounds...
To be alone you have nothing
Sacrifice everything
Live for nothing
Control everything...
You won't need anyone
Will not rely on anyone
You will never be disappointed
Never let down
Never hurt
Just always alone...

What is this sacrifice?
What does it really mean?
Is it worth it?
Loneliness and isolation haunt relentlessly...
No - I'm better of alone
Thank God I'm alone...

Anew

The beauty of a flower
The first fresh dewdrops of morning adorning it's petals
Tiny glass crystals emitting rainbows of colour.
Refreshing.
New.
Capturing the very essence of that blood red rose,
Becoming one.
Sheets of summer showers showing us the softness of life.
We are freshened.
Made new.
Kissed by life itself

Happiness

Oh, to be happy
To be jovial
To live!

To experience -
Without the pain
To love -
Without the hurt
To live -
Without the sadness.

Freedom!

I'm free,
I'm lucky,
'Cause my happiness is haunting me

Fear

Is this what scares you?
Makes your heart beat fast inside
As I get near you
See the evil in my eyes.

Run and I'll catch you
There is no place to hide
Tight grasp, lips blue
Can you feel that death is nigh?

I will fuck you up...
I will drain your soul...
I will not give up...
Until I see you fold...

It's Fear
It's the dark side
I'm here
To sure your pride
It's Fear
Boiling up inside
I'm near
And you cannot hide

So run
Just run
Yeah run

So I can chase you...

Hate

I hate your smile
I hate your vicious stare
I hate who you've made me
I hate the way I care...

I hate everything about you
I hate the very thought of you
I hate that you may hate me too
I hate me for loving you...

I hate it when you call me
I hate it when you don't
I hate  the way you look at me
I hate it when you won't...

I hate all of you inside me
I hate your face that haunts me
I hate that you refuse to see
I hate you for ever loving me...

I hate the way you twist my mind
I hate the way you claw my soul
I hate your voice inside my head
I hate the way I want to fold...

I hate you
All of you
Just hate me too...

Whole again...

Love has many faces
Do you know me?
We've been so many places
But are we really free?
Can you say you love me?
Or is this just a game?
Through these glasses, can you see me?
Or am I just a name?
So many questions
Answers are so few.
Committed all these sins
To prove my love for you...
Uncomfortable and uneasy
Unhappy and insane,
I need you just to love me -
And make me yours again.
A kiss that makes me shiver
A hug that warms my soul
Devotion, just a sliver
Give back to make me whole...

Rescue

I need something to reconnect my brain
Drugs to stop the torment
     To halt the voices
          To cure the pain...

I need this throbbing blood spill from my heart
     To cease to be.

Along with my deepening fears
Please somebody rescue me...

I'm drowning,
     Burning alive,
          Suffocating,
               Can I survive?

Listen

Would you even shed tears
If this silver blade conquers my creamy skin?
Would it hurt your heart
As layers are torn apart from my crimson flesh?
Can you say you feel me
As my hands become deathly numb?

My blood soaks your fingers
And you are lost...
There is no deliverance
From my winter sin.

Cold...
Alone...
Icy...
Stone...

You heard but did not listen
Does it pain you?

I don't know

When I cause angels to shed tears
As I waste away my years
I am consumed by my fears
Asking - How did I get here?

I don't know...

Is there much worse than this burning pain?
As I call on the heavens to wash it away
Why did I choose the wrong path again?
Just questions, no answers, a sick game we play...

Hatred, anger - My demise
I can't see through sordid lies
But can they cut through my disguise?
Can they tell what lies inside?

I don't know...

What are my chances to make it this time?
Given the right choices will I be just fine?
Struck me so hard, I'll take it as a sign.
Life is a journey, gotta take a hold of mine.

Escape

Trapped inside my warped reflection
Wishing escape was something true
Tried to run from my addictions
Just left me fucked up and confused

Thought love would finally set me free
But I had nothing left to give
Turned out you were too good for me
How can I just go on and live?

Thrown

Soul cut and bleeding
Please somebody free me,
Can you not all see me?
Discretely
Sitting here...
Waiting here...

Beside me
These lies are inside me
Confiding
Catching tears...
Long lost years...

Never thought I'd be lonely
With you here to hold me
Console me
Don't throw me away...

The Dream

I dreamt a dream in the depths of the night.
A dream illuminated only by the soft kisses of the twinkling stars...
We sit silently, clasping hands throughout my dream.
Never before has silence spoken so much between two.
Never again shall such intense conversation be so peaceful.
Dripping with irony is how we don't need these words to breathe...
When words alone are all we have and you are my air...

It's just us...

A tear stains my cheek as I awake...
For you are no longer by my side.
Hours set out to torture
Till I can dream so sweet again.

Unholy deliverance

Blood streams -
Running over delicate palms
Dripping endlessly off young fingers
Bleeding out such fresh, innocent life...
Warm, silky, smooth
Leaving her cold, hard and rigid...
Staring blankly at what she's done,
Contemplating almost irreversible consequences.
Darkened walls creep in progressively
As beating fills her ears
Drumming loudly,
Slowly...
Each gasped breath
Crawls into her lungs
Clawing at her throat
Causing her to gag.
She is weakened
As sheets become soaked crimson -
What selfish sacrifice.
Eyelids heavy
Time ticks by,
She sheds some tears
Which strike silently on solid foundation.
Where is her grounding?
Moving further from redemption
She slips into nothingness -
But her pain is destroyed
Just as she has destroyed this young body with so much to offer.
She is now saved,
She killed it the only way she knew how...
She had to kill the source
She had to kill herself...
It is an unholy deliverance from the suffering...

Guilty

Your laugh brings me happiness,
Your smile lights my soul,
Your words warm my heart,
Your touch makes me whole.
Your tears tear me up,
Your sadness makes me cry,
Your kiss makes me shiver,
Your love makes me fly.
Your heart I want more of,
Your body I desire,
Your soul I wish to handle,
Your thoughts I must enquire.
If loving you is wrong,
As well as wanting you as mine.
If these feelings are too strong
Then I plead GUILTY to this crime...

Read between the lines

Between love and hate
There lies a mediocre feeling.
A feeling that can only result in incompletion...
Playing games with an aching heart,
A mind that cannot decide.
Is it wrong to do what's right?
Why is telling the truth so difficult?
To follow your heart,
Would be a crime to your mind.
You cannot move forward,
You cannot commit,
You cannot live,
If you just stay between the lines...

Protection

Dark room,
Empty space.
Trapped in,
Full masked face.
Deviant deception,
False right through.
Only protection
Of me from you...
Hate and fear
Bubble inside -
Fear of rejection
And hate of the lies.
Shall I be saved
From my burning end?
Deliver me from suffering
And true love to me send...

Anonymous

Ripping out hearts -
Obviously oblivious to the
Numbing pain you cause...
Nothing can satisfy your wants and
Inside you are so confused.
Every second that passes
Could be used for so much more, instead there are
Hours wasted on hurtful games...
Anger bubbles within you,
Rivaling with allies.
Leaving a path of emotional destruction.
Evil slowly devours your compassion,
Sending you plummeting into self-hate and conflict.
Where many have tried to capture your wild heart -
All have failed, so
Lonely you stand.
Knighted with a beauty most envy... Yet we know
Inside there lurks a deep canyon of hidden emotions...
Now there is one that desires to
Seek your soul, to
Hold your bleeding heart.
All others have turned away, but this is one
Who is willing to withstand the pain...

Romantic Player

Romance is a game
Over-rated by lovers
New excitement when playing
Newer pain when it's over
Inside we want more
Enough is never OK.

Cause when hearts are so sore
He just never will stay.
A mush of old feelings
Ruin all it could be.
Learning too much from meanings,
Evoking catastrophe.
Saying goodbye should be hard,

Walking away should be easy.
Always playing the last card
Leaving hearts cut and bleeding.
King of his castle
Intruder of mine
Never keeping this parcel
Sufficient time to shine...
Heavenly to the eye,
Awkward to the heart.
Wandering through lies

To love you is an art...

21 Grams

Acid pulsing through my veins
Causing my body to ache
With every beat of my bleeding heart.
Insides melting away
Until I am nothing
Just an empty shell remains...

Lifeless eyes spill emotionless tears
Which make their way down cold cheeks
Leaving salty trails
Where once there was colour.
Freckles gently fade
Till grey shale remains.

A body chiseled from stone -
No movement...
Air has left these lungs
Which once stretched and shrunk
To provide life.

21 grams lighter -
One wonders...
Where had my excess weight found refuge?
Did Hell want me? Would Heaven accept me?
Only God knows the answer to that...

So here I lie,
Not entirely me
Just a few grams less...

Stolen

My heart is
A diamond covered in grime,
Lying innocently on the floor of this concrete jungle
Surrounded by strangers who stomp silently past...
Just longing to be noticed

Waiting patiently for someone to catch a glimpse
Of priceless hidden purity.
Waiting for someone whose eye will spot
The sparkle of this rare, unpolished gem
Through it's dirty exterior...

Only desire is to be stolen,
By a man who appreciates true worth.
Thief with an honest heart
PLEASE!
Steal me...
Before the drain's gaping mouth
Greedily consumes.

Deadly consequences

How could this happen to me?
I've lived a "normal" life. Only once have I
Veered into the forbidden unknown...

A night of pleasure. Just one.
I didn't use my knowledge to save me, even though
Deep inside I knew, body screaming "Yes!", mind screaming "No!"
Soon I would discover the consequences of my mistake...

Disease consumes my young body, so full of potential.
Eroding me from the inside out
All the while I ask myself "Why?"
Too late now to wonder
How my life could have been, had I only used protection...

Saved from the suffering

This deep, dark, bitter poison
So hard to swallow
Sings out a shadow song
Of empty strength
And shallow whispers
Sigh...

Just an angry dream
Of your sordid dance with death,
Whilst disease destroys from within,
All your soul requires
Is the delicate embrace
Of heaven's angels
To be set free -
Saved from the suffering...

It's over

A scream...
Cold glassy eyes stare blankly into my soul
As I gather chipped stone from your hardened heart.
Hands reach out slowly, set to destroy.
Me...
The target...
For too long I have been chased because of your twisted game.
Just for your sick pleasure you haunt me.
You think you have won me,
Capture my essence.
But you're wrong.
You have nothing
And you die with nothing.
You are cursed.
And you told me I was the unlucky one!
Burn in hell you fiendish creature,
Drenched in lies and evil.
That's the sole purpose of those fiery pits...

Random thoughts...

People have issues.
I mean REAL issues.
They blame themselves for things that no-one could have changed.
They live completely in the past and constantly worry about the future.
Nothing is ever good enough yet they moan about the fact that the world demands perfection.
They are upset about the things they cannot change,
Do nothing about the things they can
And most lack the wisdom to tell the difference.

Our world is a sad world; a world of thousands of crippled hearts.
Hearts that are completely unable to bestow love on any human being.
The words "I hate you" are commonplace
But words of a soft and tender nature are rarely spoken and even less heard.
People are unable to tell those they love how they feel and it is always "too late".

A generation is creeping out of the shadows -
A generation of pure hate, lust and evil.
"Let my will be done" is their prayer and "Fuck them" their motto.
What can be done?
God weeps a million tears over each and every lost soul.
His pain over our suffering is immense.
He loves when no one cares.
He listens when no one hears.
He helps when no one lends a hand...

There is no appreciation -
The beautiful, sacred name of Christ, our Lord and Saviour, is used in the lowest of low means.
My soul cringes and my heart aches when I hear His name mentioned with such blasphemous intentions.

People experience pain, yet they do not want relief.
They suffer from the sickness, yet they do not desire the cure.
They crave only more pain,
Suffering... Sickness... Sadness...

I say: Leave the past alone and let the future take care of itself,
Live for today,
For this very second.
Because once lived it becomes the past...
And we all know -
You cannot change the past.

Jesus wept

I weep.
I weep for the children of the future,
For they know not what they are being born to face.
I weep.
I weep for the elders of the past,
For they were too blind to see.
I weep.
I weep for now,
For the people of now...

My mistake

You give me your heart.
How good that feels!
I'm finally a part
Can't believe this is real!
Yet those eyes stare me down,
Is there love in your face?
You whisper and frown,
I'm out of my place...
From this dream I awake,
Befuddled,
Confused.
And my head I must shake
To rid me of you.
You torture my nights,
Stealing my dreams,
Robbing my heart
Of all that is me.
Your influence real,
My mind so naive.
Do I know what I feel?
This story I weave?
I realise now,
I've made a mistake
'Cause the love of my life
Feels nothing but hate...

Hell's game

Darkness around
Closing me in.
I hear no sound
I feel just sin.
Where to escape?
No place to hide.
Nothing but
Darkness,
Sickness,
And lies.
An itch,
Can't scratch...
Tortures me mad.
A monster,
To hatch...
The symbol of bad.
Anything worse than
This burning pain?
Nothing!
It's simple...
Hell
Plays this game.

It has won

Drip
Drip
Drop
Down...
Running, oozing maroon streams.

Life?
No
Too simple...
Just liquid, crimson liquid.
Sickly seeping, slowly soaking soft satin sheets.

Death?
How easily it thwarts life's ambitions.
Boldly bleeding beauty beyond repair...
Wilting white roses becoming wicked wives to darkness.

It has overcome...
It bleeds...
It has won...

Revelation

Bodies cringing in their graves,
Begging for the ones who saves,
Screaming,
Crying,
Hoping,
Pleading,
No blood left to keep on bleeding.
"Help!" they cry
"Why, oh why?"
"Why did you just let me die?"
"You knew the truth, why'd you lie?"
"WHY did you just let me die!?!?"
Now you see why?
We must speak, before they die!
It's our job
So don't you lie.
TELL THE TRUTH
So they'll know why...

Tears

Tears in my life
Ever flowing yet not
Always on the outside...
Right deep inside, I cry
Silently

Who knew where it would lead?

Who knew where it would lead?
When baby Jesus let out his cry.
Who knew where it would lead?
When those men looked to the sky.
Who knew where it would lead?
When they saw that twinkling star.
Who knew where it would lead?
When they set out for afar.
Who knew where it would lead?
When they bowed down to our King.
Who knew where it would lead???
Our God knew everything...

Where he belongs

Happy now where he belongs
Up in heaven singing songs
We down here just love him so
But heaven's where he's go to go.
His time is up,
We won't agree
But out Lord God
Would disagree.
'Cause now he's right where he belongs,
Up in heaven singing songs...

I love you more than life itself

I love you more than life itself
Us together are like books on a shelf
Our story's been written
But is yet to be told
We'll see where life takes us
And how it unfolds...

What's the point?

What's the point of all this pain?
All this sorrow to every name.
What's the point of all this blood?
Flowing like a rushing flood.
What's the point of all these guns?
Which kill the young and innocent ones.
What's the point of all this war?
Bodies falling to the floor.
There is no point,
But it happens anyway...
WHY?